Ytd U had a BIG TIFF wif baby. I made him go bonkers. All coz I sit inside a guy's car. That guy is a regular customer at my work place. Also considered as my fren. He is a decent guy and he is ard 10 yrs older den me. I told baby that I will be gg back in his car he he seems pissed already but my fren had been waiting for mi for the past few hrs till I knocked off. How could I let him wait in vain? Further mre can see he realli harbours no other ill intentions but merely treating mi as a fren. At 1st he was gg to send mi back home but den I realised that his hse is at Bedok so I told him to send mi to my bf hse instead. Who noes Ben is already so fucking pissed. If I dun love him I wun take the risk of staying over at his place coz my parents are strict and dislike mi to stay over at people hse. But still I went. Who knows when I reach he show me attitude and scold me. After that he keep smoking and he even use his knuckle to bang the tree. The impact is like full blast luh. Can hear the "BOMP" sound and the whole tree was like shaking. Den he stared hard at me and scream, " You know I dun like you sitting other people car why U noe I dislike U still did that!?" I argued back and said that he was unreasonable coz I told him in advance already and we are just frens so why cant I sit his car? Den he said, " WHY! U come over U think I no money pay cab fare or wad?!" The quarrel was reaching it's boiling peak and he start to pull my bag. I was afraid that he will whack mi like many of the BF's in the world does. But he didn't. Even when he was at his highest boiling point he didn't lay a finger on me. He was truly a GENTLEMAN. After that he sort of cool dwn. We went to his hse and talk. He said, he was fed up and worried bout me when I go ard sitting guy's car. Reason coz' he dunno them and he ain't sure what they will do to me. People may seems to be decent but there are murderers that goes around killing innocents and there are also many rapists that look decent but in fact they are NOT. He said that he has no comments or wad-so-ever when I go out wif Qing Yi or Benjamin. Even if Benjamin USED to came to my hse in the night time or wad, he is at least being assured that nth will happen to mi becoz he can trust them enough. But for the rest like kwee Yong and all, they might still harbours others intention for me. He cant trust them coz he don't know them a single bit. I started crying again.. I had bared my own tears from flowing dwn since I stepped into his condo. But I cant seems to hold my tears back any further, they started to swells at the rim at my eyes. It just gush dwn my cheeks like how the tap works.. Again.. It was my fault, and he came pacifying me again. I knew everything was my fault because he made it clear to me b4 that he DUN LIKE me sitting in other's car. But I refused to take in his advice. I knew I only had myself to blame. But yet, when my tears flowed out he came to hush me up. He said SORRY to me when it wasn't he fault. " Sorry baby, I was wrong, I shouldn't had raise my voice at you..sorry kies.. dun cry anymore..." My heart was aching so much when I saw the injuries on his hand. Internal bleeding..I felt so ashamed of my foolish acts even thou I didn't let him down. After all my tears were dried I had a sever headache and I didn't went for work today. Every thing was chilled now.. but I still felt remorseful.






BABY: You are always the one who has been giving in to me. Even when I was in the wrong, you came to pacify me when ever I cried. Although it was a mistake on my part. YOU bared with it and blamed yourself for everything. It was my honour to have you by my side, but yet I always make you worried and fed-up. Please try to tolerate this brainless pig of urs who only knows how to eat and sleep. Just like what you said. You have too..because without you, the whole world might meant nth to me anymore. When I said I love you, I really do. When I kissed you everytime, it meant how much I yearn for your love. Whenever you lend me ur shoulders when I cry, it simply means.. I can't do anything without you in my life. "ILOVEYOU" and I hope that you will love me too..FOREVER.. =)